there was never anything here

im dead

i once thought that maybe we had something. but i understand now we probably never did. it was sad and wrong and confusing and even if we didnt care about the world ending around us. and the hate and sadness and despair. and all the self destructive beheaviour. the destroying of our bodies.

i still somehow can think back on those days fondly.

even if in truth, we werent happy then